Thursday, October 1, 2020

I saw you in my dream

In my dream, I slept and had a dream. In that dream, I saw you. Then I woke up (in my dream), I saw you again. The moment I saw you, I felt that I miss you so much. I tried to run away, but you walked to me and smile so brightly. I took your hand and felt so happy. 

Saturday, July 13, 2019

Again

I want to try again
Lets call it my last attempt
Before I am going home for a long time

Before my heart change, because it always failed getting its chance

You should understand

I try hard for you

Patah

Kau denger bunyi
retak-retak itu?

Aku tahu hatiku
sedang patah

patah jadi dua,
tiga,
empat

banyak
banyak sekali

tapi kau tidak tahu itu

____

Bintaro,
sekitar pukul 2 pagi

Wednesday, April 10, 2019

This is Stupid

I want to kill myself so badly.
But I am afraid He will just throw me to hell without questioning me anymore.
Well, a short "are you okay" will be nice.

Reach Out

Why didn't you reach out?, you asked.

I did, but when I tried, countless times, you didn't even try to listen.

But when I stepped back, you become so curious, sadly not because you missed me.

You called, I got shock,

Did you finally look for me? My lil stupid hope.

Nope,  you said you need your stuff.

It seemed like you had some nice plan for holiday.

Really hope you will have some nice holiday there.

You were right that the life I live now is not what people should have.

But what could I ask for?

You leave.

just like what they did.